I’m the kind of person that has their whole future completely planned out. Well, a lot of it anyway. For example: while lots of high school students get to college without a clue of what they really want to study, I’ve known what I want to major in since I was about seven. In fact, I even have my college picked out already. You see, when it comes to planning, I like to think that I’ve got all my ducks in a row.
And I do, really. I mean, it’s a good thing to know what you want to do with your life, isn’t it? Don’t parents get worried and frustrated over children who don’t desire to do anything with their future?
Even so, the Lord has been teaching me a lot about this planning that I do. He knows well that I have a tendency to get my heart set on something, only to set myself up for disappointment in the end. He also knows that I’m not a big fan of “plan B.” (But then again… who is?)
I suppose He really began this lesson when my family and I moved three hours away from the place I had grown up in, to pastor a church in another state. But the lesson didn’t stop there. Lately, the Lord has been speaking to my heart a lot about my plans for the future. While I know that it’s a good thing plan ahead, I also know that I can easily get frustrated when things don’t go the way that I had hoped.
And in the end, I really need to learn to be more flexible. Because all of this comes down to the question of, “How much do I trust God?” Do I really trust Him? If I do, I’ll be at peace with whatever comes to pass, knowing that He has planned my life with my good and His glory in mind.
“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.” -Jeremiah 29:11
So why do I fight so hard to write my life? I always blame the writer in me for this urge to pen my own tale, but it probably has more to do with the stubborn in me than anything. And the truth is, He’s already written this story anyway.
“And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there were none of them.” -Psalms 139:16
And you know what? I really wouldn’t want any other Author to hold the pen.